I've been a little absent from blogging lately. I've had little time between travel and caring for my little family. Life gets so busy. I'm sure you are familiar with this feeling. After a little sigh, I think I'm ready to post a little more regularly again. I hope I keep the inspiration anyway. Hang with me if I don't. I am learning more about myself daily through being a mother and as I continue to comfort my heart during this time of loss. I've experienced deaths in my family before but none that has rocked my whole world like losing my mom. I can't quite explain what it's like but everything suddenly feels different. I lose my footing more than usual these days. But somehow I feel like I've been awakened in a way I wasn't fully before. I see the preciousness and beauty of each passing day more vividly.
Sometimes it's painful, to feel the moments I missing with my mom and other times all I can feel is gratitude for the gift of a mother that was so very extraordinary. If you knew her, I don't even have to explain. The world was brighter just by her being in it. What I do know is as I find new places in my heart that ache, I'm digging deeper to fill them with gratitude, love and thankfulness for all the blessings I have in my life. If anything, these growing pains are cultivating a more thankful, compassionate heart in me.
So hang in there my (nine) readers. I still love you!
While I'm pouring out my heart here, sometimes after I post, I feel embarrassed for being so vulnerable publicly. And I go back online to hit delete, but then I tell myself maybe one of you has felt like this too and feels comfort in hearing my words. I hope that is the case. If not, thank you for reading along with me. Your (virtual) companionship is a comfort to me. Your kind comments are always appreciated. Thank you.
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Who are you my dear readers?