Sunday, February 5, 2012
The grass is always greener.
I totally took for granted the green, grassy parks of California. I had no idea that parks didn't always include this green-soaked view. Well, Arizona parks are primarily dirt and the grass that is there-brown. The down the street is no different but, it does have these wispy gray-blue bushes, with yellow flowers, that are such eye-candy.
Desert landscape is a big change for us, considering our previous scenery boasted ocean views and rich green parks. I have to say Huntington Beach was our dream spot in so many ways. We did not take it for granted. We said daily, "I love it here!" Kevin and I both long for the ocean and we dream of (again) living somewhere where we can walk to most of our weekly activities. We are sure our future home will have at least one of these elements. In the meantime we are getting acclimated to cacti and finding new scenes to appreciate. I do love the dusty gray succulents and copper, steel sculpture that sprinkle the city.
We've had so many changes in the last 5 months. It's like we are finally catching our breath. Many days Kevin and I look at each other and say, "Where are we?" It's like in the midst of a storm we've plopped ourselves down in a foreign spot to call home. It will be nice to meet a few people to call friends but for the time being, I'm a little quiet and I'm okay with that. My heart needs a little extra protection these days. It's fragile.
I've been concerned that my heartache will effect our little bloom but I'm finding that if anything, she lifts it from me. She is a constant reminder that life is so SO beautiful, even amidst the ache of loss. She refocuses me on our family. That is a good thing. And I'm happy to report, our little bloom is flourishing. She has grown so much and is talking a ton. She loves reading, Olivia the piglet, her wooden puzzles, her favorite word "baby"-we hear it all day long. She blows kisses to nearly everyone, is excited to wave Hi! to new people and is quick to giggle. We feel so blessed to be her parents although, we are still often sleep deprived. I'm afraid to jinx it but this week-she slept until 6am nearly every day. That alone, is life-changing, bliss.
Right now we are exploring our new city, taking naps and trying so many new restaurants. My jeans are getting a bit tight. It's a good thing I found a pilates instructor. Chloe and I go walking often but It's that mid-week workout that is gonna keep me in check. Thank goodness.
We've also been lucky enough to have lots of visitors. (Photos coming soon) It is wonderful to have friends and family here with us, we feel very loved. Right now, my sweet little bro is with us. He is such a great uncle. We are so happy he is here.
Well, pretty random post. But, isn't that how life is?
So, here I am, just a girl, trying to find her balance.
How do you find yours? Any tips?